Rome Diarys

Sunday we got up at 6.30am to get ready to go to Tuscany for Sofia’s baptizam, it was hard dragging myself out of bed but we didnt it. I slept in the car most of the 2 hour journey especially as we got closer to the place as there are lots of bends in the road and alot of times i start to feel sick as they are quite constant. It was a really lovely day, hot and sunny and the villages were all quiet with not many people about. When we got there everyone was getting ready and Sofia’s was in a cute white dress with little silver shoes and smiling away. The grandparents are the people we usually stay with when we go stay in tuscany. We saw there new puppy who is adorable and wanted to play all the time, she kept licking me wanting her belly rubbed and then she nipped my toes and fingers for attention.

Once everyone was ready we went down to the little church in the village where the baptizam was part of the normal sunday service. It was really nice there a beautiful simple church with a few wooden benches, candles, the service was really nice and all in italian. Once everything was done we all headed outside and we gave them some money for Sofia.

It was pretty hot by then so we all headed back to the house so we could go to the restaraunt where we would have the special lunch. Alex wanted to leave at 4pm so we would avoid any traffic coming back into rome so i agreed. The lunch was really nice we started with melon, procuitto, tuna mixed with onion and breadcrumbs, then after that it was a crepe with spinach and white sauce, then came a dish of pasta with ragu. Next was pork meat with potato’s, dishes of more pork and mixed vegtables and finally some fruit. They bought out a cake at the end with Sofia’s name on and we all had some of that to. She had been alseep all the way through in her buggy. But she woke up at desert time and was given some presents by people, baby clothes etc. I played with her a little bit and got her smiling away, she seemed very curious about all the people that were around her and about the whole day in general. So finally 4pm came and we headed back to Rome luckily with no traffic on the road and so i slept alot again on the way back.

Alex said it would be nice to have our child baptized in that little church as he enjoyed it so much and he was really emotional about it all. So we have talked about having children again and he has agreed to have one next year begining of the summer we can try. So hes finally decided he does want them and feels a bit more comfortable about it i think now, especially as friends around as are having babies or might be trying next year as well.

So today i went to the gym, i have 4 days this week before they close on friday until the 24th August so i have to make the most of it. I got out and find myself in a strange mood and i dont know why….i know im losing weight slowly but i want to see more of a result but thats not the whole reason for my mood. I really dont know why else, i dot feel like doing anything, usually i will watch a new episode of true blood but i havent for the last 2 weeks. I have kind of lost interest in things but i know eventually i will go back to them but for now i just dont want to.

Im staying home today as Alex isn’t feeling very well hes still on the antibiotics and this is the last day of the really strong ones. He didnt get much sleep last night and is a little worried there not working for him. But hes got to wait a week and go back for more tests to see if the bacteria is finally gone, fingerscrossed!!

My thighs are aching alot today as i tried a new weight machine for that area yesterday and it seems to be working. I even did a yoga work out off the internet yesterday and the day before when i got back from the gym just to help with tonning. I have seen a nice gym top they are selling in the gym as well for 20 euros which would be nice as i only have 2 t-shirts at the moment and really need to get some more. And maybe some more tracksuit bottoms but i can get them off the market stalls in september for a few euros!

I try to do some sit ups as well but its difficult when Ciro wants a cuddle at the same time to ends up draping himself over me or laying on my chest licking my face while im trying to do them. Yesterday while i was doing the yoga he tried to jump off a chair onto my shoulder with claws out but luckily i managed to move out the way. He sat on the floor staring at me after that wanting to know why i didnt want his cuddle.

We are going to a chrisening on sunday in Tuscany a friend of ours little baby girl shes so cute and they live in Amsterdam but her grandparents are the ones we usely stay with when we go to tuscany. It should be quite fun and i always love holding the baby!!

I had some lovely mixed fish for lunch at the little egyptian place near us that sells wonderful food and that isnt very expensive its lovely. Alex had cold pasta with tomato and mozerella all mixed togeather and i had battered squid rings, battered prawns and some battered fish. It takes soo nice and i always love to have it now when they are selling it! I am eating more fish now more tuna sandwiches or tuna in my jacket potato or pasta and prawns.

Ciro’s not been eating much the last few days i noticed and won’t eat all his cat food. Im not sure if its the heat thats effecting him, so i have started leaving some of his biscuits down just incase he wants a snack. Although he did have a bit of my fish lunch!

Its still really hot outside and i should i guess be happy about it but sometimes its just to hot and i would rather stay under the aircon to be honest. I guess its different when your going on holiday you always want the weather to be nice and hot but when you live in another country its not always a good thing especially when your there all the time!

I have been going to the gym for 4 days an hour a day and i can already see im losing weight!! im so happy cant believe i can already see results! Sometimes its hard to drag myself out of bed and i think god more sweat but once im there i jump right in! I dont like the bike much but have worked out i can tolerate it for 10mins along with the cross trainer but what i really enjoy is the running machine. I mean i dont really jog alot but i do a really fast walk. Start on valocity 5.0 for 10mins then do 30mins at 5.5 which is really fast. I have noticed more people in there in the mornings now, theres a body build who comes in and 2 old ladies. I tend to get there for 9.45am so i can get it all done before it gets to hot outside. Its a really good feeling to be going again, i can’t wait to be able to fit into the slimmer tops i have and actually look nice with no jelly belly!!

The gym is closing from 7th august to 24th august so i will have to do the online exercises while its closes so i dont miss out. So my plan is 5 days a week at the gym with weekend as rest time so i can spend them with Alex!

Looks like my brother is coming to visit for sure in October and hes started dating a girl so he asked me reather shyly that if they got serious could he bring her with him to Rome. I dont mind at all and Alex was fine with it as its only a week and as long as they dont mind sharing the big sofa bed we have it will all be well.

I have to say im not thrilled with some of the stuff they have here health ways, well what i mean is the gynocologist gave me some stuff for my thrush. One of which is a scent water thing u have to insert in the area and squeeze til its empty. So as you can imagine it gets a bit messy and arkward and legs akimbo and frustrating as im not a bendy elastic dolly, why oh why? and how does it help? i have never ever had anything like that in the UK!Losing Weight

I went to the gym today it felt so great! I got there at 8.55am and it was closed even though it was supposed to be open at 8.30 and the lady said to come at 9am. So i stood around until 9.35 when the cleaner opened up, i gave him 5mins to settle in then walked in. I could here a shower running in a changing room so went outside and waited another 5 mins then went back in. We both suprised eachother then i came round the corner but i explained who i was in my basic italian also using my english and all was ok. I was Queen of the gym there was no one else in using in it was fantastic. So i started out with the bike doing 10mins, 20mins on the running machine doing a fast walk and jog, then 10mins on the crosstrainer and another 6mins on the bike. I finished off by exploring the weight machines and trying a few out! So im going to go everyday if i can now as they are closed for 2 weeks in August for a break.

Ciro is being so good at the moment very loving and wanting to play all the time, i got a big greeting when i got home from the gym all purrs and cuddles.

Im speaking to another girl from the expats page whos living here in Roma an American. She wants to meet up tomorrow in central rome. Im a bit worried about doing it as she might not turn up, so we shall see.

I have moved my blog to another site my friend set up for me so im now at www.romelife.info if anyone is still interested in reading my blog at all

Went to the gynocologist today to get a check up my first ever with this kind of Doctor. I mean i have had smears in the UK like every other women but i have never been to a gynocologist for a check yup. We just wanted to make sure i didnt have the bacteria that Alex has. So she was really nice and friendly i had Alex translating as normal, so she checked my chest for lumps all was fine there. She checked my lady parts and told me i had thrush and also that my uterus was inlarged. She gave me some stuff for the thrush then said she wanted me to get an ultrasound done in september of my pelvis just to check my uterus. She said it could just be inherited and gentic but wanted to check all was ok. She said not to worry and to bring the results back to her in september.

So i got home phoned my mum who said she doesnt have one and as far as she knows nor did my grandmothers. This worried me a little she said to google it and see what comes up. Even Jess told me not to worry and see what happens. And so i googled it and scared myself if some of the results. It looks like some women just have inlarged ones but there can be other courses as well like fibroids. I really worried it might effect me having children and i would be devistated if that happened. Alex weeks telling me not to worry and it will be ok so now i just wait and see what comes of this.

I went to the gym wed and thur but didnt go today as my trainers are to small for me and making my feet hurt. I realised this yesterday when my big toe ached for 3 hours after the gym! Jess told me about a sports shop in roma i can get some new ones but walking past a local shoe shop today i realised they sell some so might look in there tomorrow.

My brother is booking tickets to Blizz.com for next year which will be held in california i would really like to go but not sure i can afford it. Im going to keep my fingerscrossed i can save up for it.

I went to the gym today it felt so great! I got there at 8.55am and it was closed even though it was supposed to be open at 8.30 and the lady said to come at 9am. So i stood around until 9.35 when the cleaner opened up, i gave him 5mins to settle in then walked in. I could here a shower running in a changing room so went outside and waited another 5 mins then went back in. We both suprised eachother then i came round the corner but i explained who i was in my basic italian also using my english and all was ok. I was Queen of the gym there was no one else in using in it was fantastic. So i started out with the bike doing 10mins, 20mins on the running machine doing a fast walk and jog, then 10mins on the crosstrainer and another 6mins on the bike. I finished off by exploring the weight machines and trying a few out! So im going to go everyday if i can now as they are closed for 2 weeks in August for a break.

Ciro is being so good at the moment very loving and wanting to play all the time, i got a big greeting when i got home from the gym all purrs and cuddles.

Im speaking to another girl from the expats page whos living here in Roma an American. She wants to meet up tomorrow in central rome. Im a bit worried about doing it as she might not turn up, so we shall see.

So we went to the cinema on saturday afternoon in Piazza di Popolo it was really nice! My first time in a cinema in italy!! It was small but with comfy seats we went to see the latest Harry Potter films which was good although they left alot out from the book. The next film will be the last. Alex even enjoyed it although the last film he went to see was the last Lord of the Rings film. He said we could do it more often although next time its his turn to choose a film and it will be in italian as Harry Potter was in English with Italian sub-titles.

So im getting ready to book my ticket for October to visit my parents and London, i pretty much had it all worked out. Then last night a bombshell my friend i would be staying with comes online and says they dont want to feel like a hotel. That they now can't get time of that week and don't like the fact they will only see me in the evening as there working from 6 til 8 in the week. The way they put this on MSN i really thought they were cancelling on me and i got realy upset. I have been looking forwards to going back to London for ages and they have been nagging me to come. I actually burst into tears and frightened Alex who tried to comfort me, even Ciro came to give me a cuddle he was worried to.
So basically they now have said they want me to visit but want to see me and spend time with me rather than just seeing me in the evenings (not my fault they cant get the week off). So they want me to come from a friday to a tuesday as they can take a few days off after saying they can take no days off. I said it would probably be fine but i would have to sort it out with my parents as they have the first week off so i would see them for 4 days then go to london for 4 days then i guess go back to my parents in Norfolk. Also Jess might be coming with me to London and stay with them which they are all fine with so thats ok. My friends there are just bloody weird sometimes they always have been! I have told them i am seeing some of my other friends as well not just them just to make things clear.

My brother also might be coming back with me to Roma as he wants to travel with me so he can stay for a week or 2. Its his first time flying and i dont want to let him travel alone so i have to consider all that as well!

I think next time i go to London and hopefully i go with Jess as i love having trips with her, i think we can just plan it more and stay at a hotel next time we go. Then theres no mix ups etc!

We bought Ciro a new scratchy post yeaterday its blue furry and had a box with a hole in it at the bottom then the scratchy bit then a level to sit on then another scratchy bit then another sitting bit. So far he walked up and sniffed it looked inside the box, scratched on it and thats about it. Alex was not amused by this and i said it would take sometimes for him to get used to it as its a new smell etc.

Its 37 outside today and its 10.30am and we are already feeling the heat! even Ciro is playing on the floor wanting to do nothing! so i think the aircon will be on soon. Yesterday i went for a doze on the bed and laid there like a zombie half asleep half away for 3 hours but i did feel better afterwards. We go for little walks in the evening once its cooler like everyone else here but its supposed to be getting cooler in the next few days!

Harry Potter was out on wednesday and i really want to see it at the cinema which would be my first time in italy as i havent been to one in almost 2 years! I found a cinema playing it in english and asked Alex if we could go. He said he watched the first one and didnt like it. I got a bit upset and teary as i thought he ment he didnt want to go and see it with me i acutally cried. He said we could go he hadn't ment he wouldnt take me and has promised to take me saturday afternoon.

I have been feeing a bit low since i saw a friend of mines pics on facebook from back in London her going to the pub and her new tattoo. It made me realise what i had left behind again and made me feel again i dont have a sense of freedom here, not like back there. There i could go out with my friends, go shopping with friends, get a tattoo when i wanted, join a gym with no problems, have a social life! which i dont have here apart from the computer.

We saw a baby yesterday and said how cute it was and Alex said again we can have a baby with we get rid of Ciro our cat. I wanst happy and told him he cant make me choose between a cat or baby and why should i give Ciro up as i asked for 9 months for one!! He said he thinks Ciro is crazy and a little spiteful and a baby would be better. So i wasnt happy about this i dont think its fair i have to choose between them and why does it always have to be his way??!

We are still snapping at eachother the heat isnt helping, we had an argument and he said he was disappointed with me! I didnt speak to him for the rest of the evening after that and the morning and he said he didnt know what he had said. When i explained he said he hadnt ment it in that way and it was the language difference and he was sorry it thought it was that way. He can talk about disappointments! i have been disappointed over and over so far with a crap b'day, xmas he forgot my pressie, changing his mind about marriage and not sure about a baby. I think im the one who should be disappointed! but i keep on going because i love him.

Sometimes i wonder if its all just worth it and if its going to be a happy ending in the end?! I dont want to be unhappy and i want the confidence and freedom to do my own stuff and still after almost 2 yrs i dont feel that completely

So we didnt go back to Tuscany this week as Alex decided it would be better to spend the week here and see what the results said they arrived on friday. He has 2 bacteria which is causing the postrate problem so he will have to take antibiotics to cure them. I thought he would be happy about this news now its finally know what it is, but he was all still doom and gloom. Antibiotics making you feel bad and crappy so hes not looking forwards to that for 15 days as his doctor gave him tablets for it. Worse i have to go to the gyno on friday and get checked as i might have the bacteria as well so i will have to take the tablets as well oh joy!

So we finally went to the gym on friday as Alex decided he would do something to get me outside more interact which was nice. We went and talked round it talk to a lady there who spoke english and got a timetable. We are ging back to sign me up on the 21st july they are open until the first week in August then closed for 2 weeks then start again so at least i get to try them for a little bit.

Alex is now obsessed with buying a brand new car such as a Mercedez which hes fallen in love with. Its alot of money which we dont have and even selling the porche he has now might not cover it. So we will wait and see what happens. He dragged me to two car places to have a look at things.

This week we did what i didnt want to do which was stay in alot on the computer, we did go for a few walks and ok maybe i should have asked to do something different apart from the 2 times i did ask! We are really grumpy and snappy with eachother at the moment the heat isn't helping (its 55 outside today) him being ill isn't helping, not making love for 2 months because of it isnt helping. We keep apologizing to eachother after a while its a weird situation.

He was also watching the discovery channel all the time! I was getting grumpy that he is doing everything he wants but we dont get to watch or do what i want to!! Part of me will be happy when he goes back to work as least i have space to do my own thing then and breath!

So i dont know if we are going back to Tuscany now or not! His antibiotics dont allow him to go out in sunlight or it has a strange effect. So we might be stuck in Roma another week!

I talked to my friend Dave a little bit about me and Alex it was nice to get a male view on it all and hes a sweet guy and was very helpful so that was good.

My friend Jess is finally back from America! YAY! and hopefully i will get to see her at some point soon!

Ciro is being quiet at night now hes being shut in the kitchen for the whole night and very effectionate in the mornings when i let him out. He has all his toys in there etc, feed, dirt tray and now even in the afternoons he will stay in there with the door open. I think hes finally mellowing! fingerscrossed!