Rome Diarys

Well the week at my parents was really fun and so busy! We went everywhere! Ipswich, Bury, Norwich. I bought more boots for the winter jumpers, Alex's christmas present and i even bought my joggin stuff back! It was a really good week i had my fill of English food i cant get here in Roma and even bought salad cream and peanut butter back with me as well.

Everyone loved my engagement ring and are happy for us and they should all be coming to the wedding now. Also my brother and uncle are coming to visit us here end of Jan/begining of Feb so that will be loads of fun!

Alex really missed me and just kept hugging me when i arrived back yesterday, i missed him alot to especially in the week.

My niece who is 7 yrs old is learning spanish at school and picking it up quite quickly so i bought her an Italian dictionary as well which she had already started to look at. I think she might pick it up quicker than me hee hee

Managed to get more of the pill which will last six months then i go back to the clinic when i visit England again after i run out so all is good!

I have dived back into finding a job and advertised on the 'Wanted in Rome' website for babysitting work and have already got some responses! So hopefully i will have some work for sure in the next week or so!

Today im flying to England in few short hours i will be on the plane to Stansted then by taxi to my parents. I have mixed feelings im happy to be going to see them but im sad to be leaving Alex alone for a week. He got a bit upset this morning about me going as he will miss me somuch and i feel the same way. We havent been apart in 7 months and its strange to be goingsomewhere without him now. I have asked a few of his friends to make sure hes ok and cheer himup while i am away.

We are collecting our engagment rings today we decided to get engaged and we chose the rings onthursday night. Two matching white gold plain bands which we both will where until we getmarried hopefully next May. And we plan to have the honeymoon in Devon.

I have to speak with my parents while im with them about them coming to the wedding as they dont know if they can afford to come! Im the only one of there children to be getting married and there not sure they can come!?

Finally i have heard from some of the people on the babysitting list i have 3
interviews with familys so far! It will be so good to work and have some money at LAST!
I really i hope i get one of these!

I have a week and a half until i go to England to visit my parents getting really
excited now i cant wait!

Been having fun over the last few weekend going out with Alex's friends there such a
lovely bunch of people and always make me feel so welcome.

I have noticed i have lost someweight as well which im very pleased about! Even
Alex has noticed which is good

Im going to try and get the pill while over in england as well im hoping i can
just go to a clinic and get it we will have to see. Im there for a week so hopefully
I can get an appointment and get some.

Alex saw a baby at work today a women on leave bought him in and Alex thought he
was gourgous! Maybe once i have settled into work and started saving we might
try for one next year at some point but we shall see

Ohh i have just enquired about a receptionist job as well here in Rome they want an english
mother tongue person and italian is optional. Also an Irish pubcrawl job at night which
sounded interesting as well!

Things are much better now me and Alex we have talked alot and realised we need to talk more about things like fears or when we are unhappy we both need this. We can't let things get on top of us or bring us down as long as we communicate we will be ok and i do love him very much even when i moan and when he's grumpy like the bear he is.

Sometimes i wonder if i sound like a drama queen the way my emotions have been up and down so much. I don't mean to bitch so much and im trying my best not to.

Finally heard back from the Babysitting agency today they wanted more details on the application i sent them so i emailed them what they wanted. They emailed me a list of names and contact details with no instructions. When i emailed them back i was told to contact the people on the list go see them and let the agency know how i got on. Frankly i found this a bit cold and wondered why they hadn't told me this in the first place? Im not sure how good there going to be but work is work and i need something to do and they pay is very good as well. Im not sure how happy there going to be about me going to England for a week in 2 weeks time but its all booked and theres no way im giving that up!

Now i have found how easy it is to use the tube and how to get to the nearest one i think im going to go for more walks. I really enjoyed the sightseeing monday and i want to do more of wandering around even if i do get sunburnt. But i think i will leave it til monday when my sunburnt nose has recovered a bit.

I haven't felt alone the last few days and thats good, keeping busy is what i need and this week has been very good for that.

I had a chat with someone who reads this blog as well, thankyou J you made me feel better and i needed that talk, hope your having a good week.

Well i had a really nice weekend, we had lots of people meeting up we knew and we did lots of eating and drink which was nice. It was really friendly and fun and everyone had a good time and i really enjoyed myself it was fantastic. I even took someone sightseeing here in Rome we walked around from 10.30am til 6pm my feet were killing me by the end of it and we were a bit sunburnt as well!

I got upset once during the weekend as Alex had thought his infection had come back after we had a cuddle so obviously it was my fault. I cried and told him he cannot do that making me feel its my fault, i know hes worried and scared about it but he doesnt have to make me feel shit about it. He apologized and tried to cheer me up saying he hadnt ment to make me feel that way and that he felt bad afterwards about it.

But then again today he gets home and finds 2 virus's on the computer and its my fault even though i have been looking at the same old website i always do everyday. He's the one who downloads stuff and he even said it would have been something we downloaded a while ago and its come out. Ok maybe i get the virus's on the computer but theres aso the chance he did as well!

Then straight after again that he's worried again the infection has come back, being completely off with me again making me feel again its my fault, everything is my fault. He goes back to the Doctors next week and i hope they sort it out properly this time. I know he gets worried and scared but there has to be a better way for him to cope with it. Im getting to the stage i dont want to have a cuddle if im going to be put through the coldness afterwards each time.

He then wonders why my moods are so up and down! why im not all happy im visiting my parents in 3 weeks. Im now counting the days til i go i can't wait to get there and relax, i really need it. The last month has been so up and down and hard

I suggested again about getting a pet and getting a tortise was mentioned. He seemed happy with the idea and we have a friend who used to have some so we are going to ask her about how to look after one. Would be nice to finally have a pet, although i don't know even if a tortise will appear eventually or weather im just wishing to hard again.

We have another friend coming to dinner tonight so hopefully it will cheer Alex up a bit fingers-crossed.