Well i had a really nice weekend, we had lots of people meeting up we knew and we did lots of eating and drink which was nice. It was really friendly and fun and everyone had a good time and i really enjoyed myself it was fantastic. I even took someone sightseeing here in Rome we walked around from 10.30am til 6pm my feet were killing me by the end of it and we were a bit sunburnt as well! 
I got upset once during the weekend as Alex had thought his infection had come back after we had a cuddle so obviously it was my fault. I cried and told him he cannot do that making me feel its my fault, i know hes worried and scared about it but he doesnt have to make me feel shit about it. He apologized and tried to cheer me up saying he hadnt ment to make me feel that way and that he felt bad afterwards about it.
But then again today he gets home and finds 2 virus's on the computer and its my fault even though i have been looking at the same old website i always do everyday. He's the one who downloads stuff and he even said it would have been something we downloaded a while ago and its come out. Ok maybe i get the virus's on the computer but theres aso the chance he did as well! 
Then straight after again that he's worried again the infection has come back, being completely off with me again making me feel again its my fault, everything is my fault. He goes back to the Doctors next week and i hope they sort it out properly this time. I know he gets worried and scared but there has to be a better way for him to cope with it. Im getting to the stage i dont want to have a cuddle if im going to be put through the coldness afterwards each time.
He then wonders why my moods are so up and down! why im not all happy im visiting my parents in 3 weeks. Im now counting the days til i go i can't wait to get there and relax, i really need it. The last month has been so up and down and hard 
I suggested again about getting a pet and getting a tortise was mentioned. He seemed happy with the idea and we have a friend who used to have some so we are going to ask her about how to look after one. Would be nice to finally have a pet, although i don't know even if a tortise will appear eventually or weather im just wishing to hard again.
We have another friend coming to dinner tonight so hopefully it will cheer Alex up a bit fingers-crossed.
