Things are much better now me and Alex we have talked alot and realised we need to talk more about things like fears or when we are unhappy we both need this. We can't let things get on top of us or bring us down as long as we communicate we will be ok and i do love him very much even when i moan and when he's grumpy like the bear he is.
Sometimes i wonder if i sound like a drama queen the way my emotions have been up and down so much. I don't mean to bitch so much and im trying my best not to.
Finally heard back from the Babysitting agency today they wanted more details on the application i sent them so i emailed them what they wanted. They emailed me a list of names and contact details with no instructions. When i emailed them back i was told to contact the people on the list go see them and let the agency know how i got on. Frankly i found this a bit cold and wondered why they hadn't told me this in the first place? Im not sure how good there going to be but work is work and i need something to do and they pay is very good as well. Im not sure how happy there going to be about me going to England for a week in 2 weeks time but its all booked and theres no way im giving that up! 
Now i have found how easy it is to use the tube and how to get to the nearest one i think im going to go for more walks. I really enjoyed the sightseeing monday and i want to do more of wandering around even if i do get sunburnt. But i think i will leave it til monday when my sunburnt nose has recovered a bit.
I haven't felt alone the last few days and thats good, keeping busy is what i need and this week has been very good for that.
I had a chat with someone who reads this blog as well, thankyou J you made me feel better and i needed that talk, hope your having a good week. 
