:'(So last night Alex gets home from therapist and says he wants an allergy test to see if his allergic to cats and hes still not sure we can keep Ciro bla bla. I look up on the internet ways we can reduce the allergy and even after his castrated that reduces the allergy. Alex doesnt look convinced and emailed the women we got Ciro from telling her he has allergy and we dont think we can keep him. She says she can take him back and also take him for a few days to see if the allergy passes. Frankly he had already decided to get rid of Ciro and take the easy way out and not consider my feelings or that i faught 9 months to get the cat with him! So i say if Ciro goes then i can't live like this anymore and i will go!

He was shocked and said i love the cat more than him which is not true and i told him that. I said Ciro is my companion in the house he stops the lonelyness and hes going to be taken away how would you feel. He said i had hurt him and he felt alone and couldnt believe it etc etc. He thought now i wanted to go back to the UK and leave him after he said im all he has.

He said it was his fault for saying yes to getting a pet and he should never had said yes. But he knew i needed company. So then we went to bed.

In the morning he says he will try his best to keep Ciro and we can find ways to help with the allergy. Then he went on to say we can get a caged pet if he get rid of him so i will be ok?!?!?!?! I dont want another pet........:crazy:

He thinks i don't care thats hes uncomfortable with the allergy but i do care i told him to take tablets which he DOESN'T take, i looked stuff up on the internet!

So he's now moving to do stuff hes arranged an allergy test, he found a shampoo online we can put on Ciro to kill the allergy. Things we can do to reduce it and make it better for Alex.

Then he tells me the allergy is inherited so our kids would be allergic to cats and Ciro!

How i was upset last two weeks is all gone swept away and its all about Alex again! It always ends up being about him.|-|

And im sorry he feels hurt and lonely, but now he knows how i feel and felt. It isn't easy for me here i miss my family my friends my freedom. And he wants to take my little bits of happiness away and then expect me to stay here with no happy feelings. I have to think of my self it can't always be about him. I need to be happy to and i won't sacrifice that it would not be fair. My Grandmother did that for my Grandfather and she was never happy i will not be her.:'(