Rome Diarys

Ciro will not settle down at night! the last 3-4night he has woken us up with his crying at 2-3am. Alex tells me to get up and close him in the kitchen rather than let hiim cry. But i think if we just let him cry he will eventually get bored and stop!

So i close him in the kitchen and feed him and go back to bed. This works for an hour or 2 before Ciro begins to throw things of the side wanting to come out, breakable things. I have tried moving stuff but he just finds more to try and destroy. So then i let him out and the last few times he has been good and settled down. BUT tonight he got me up 3 times! i finally had to get up at 3.30am to sit with him as he wouldnt stop and was driving Alex insane!

I really dont know what to do with him or make him stop hes really getting on my nerves as well, im so tired right now its not funny.

I tried to go back to sleep on the sofa but he wouldnt let me! He either wanted a cuddle, or started to bounce of furniture like a maniac or then jumped on me and began to bite me All i want to do right now is sleep........

Alex's prostate problem has seemed to come back over the last few days hes in discomfort and pain and is very scared about it. He can't sleep properly at night as it hurts and he had to take a pain killer to help. So Ciro is not helping big time at the moment and Alex really hates him for it.

Its a bank holiday here today but we are going to the hospital as Alex's prostrate is getting worse and he wants it checked out and sorted rather than waiting for the doctors tomorrow. Hes scared it could be something worse and is very frightened about it.

So we might not be going to Tuscany and the Mountains after all it always happens just as we start our holiday! It was the same thing last year we couldnt go because his prostrate got bad a few days before we were suppose to leave

Ciro is being really naughty again pulling stuff of the sides, crying at the door at night, like he did 6 months ago. I thought we had gone eyond this stage so i dont know why he is starting it all up again! I dont know if hes senses that we are going away soon maybe that is it. But our friend is coming twice a day to feed him and play with him and i know hes not used to being alone but its something he has to get used to. I know i spoil him and treat him alot like a baby which is bad i guess but i do love him alot.

Alex sent me a really lovely link to about the mountains we are going to be visiting a tourist website with all the walks etc you can do it looks so nice. This is the website:

http://www.valcomelico.it/

Looks really interesting so really can't wait to go, i need more batteries for my camera so i can go crazy taking pics!

We are also visiting friends in Tuscany for a few days and i absoultely love it there been a few times before! We have even talked about selling the house in the mountains and getting a small house in tuscany as its closer and we could go there on weekends and take Ciro with us. I found a really nice nature hiking website for Tuscany as well.

http://www.tuscanywalkingfestival.it/

Im finding i really miss my friend Jess whos still in America i read her messages on facebook when she posts it will be nice when shes back home in italy

Ciro keeps being really naughtly lately biting me hard and clawing me and attacking my legs with real hardness that he draws blood. I joined a cat behaviour fourm which is really good there really nice people. I explained whats going on with Ciro and they said its normal for him being 10 months old as hes going through his teenage period! and he will grow out of it. So so far we have had his terrible like a 2 yrs old and now teenage years in a period of 6 months! crazy!

Also i have read that indoor cats can become frustrated as they see bird outside and cant attackt or chase them so it builds up until it comes out in anti-social ways. So it said new toys can stimulate him as well as a toy mouce on a string. And i should only give him affection when he comes for it at the moment.

I bought 2 huge tea mugs yesterday for my tea, or milk shakes or soup etc there really cool and were only 1 euro each. I also found these clothes baskets in shapes of animals so i bought 3. One for my winter clothes 1 for my summer clothes and one for Ciro! He loves it he keeps jumping in and out of it and bending it and it keeps him amused and quiet!

I put some more pics on facebook some random ones of Ciro and some the lady who looked after him sent us.

Ales has a one day week next week then we are on holiday again! we just need to work out when we are going to tuscany for 4-5 days and then the mountains. I can't wait it should be really fun!

We talked about me going to visit the UK again in October for 2 weeks which will be lovely! So i cant sort out xmas pressies etc and get that done for my family.

I am so excited about joining the gym in september! as Alex said there closed in August or something! I have put a stone on from not doing much as i only work 3 days a week and im so unfit now! I even have scales now i bought so i can keep an eye on my weight!

I know we only talk over the internet and see eachother occasionally but i really miss having Jess to talk to while shes away in America at the moment seeing her family. Its weird but true but it sounds like shes having a nice time

My last day of work was yesterday until september now i felt really sad about it but i hope the girls have a really good holiday and enjoy there time away from School. Im going to keep incontact with the older one through email which is good

Some friends of mine from London might be visiting end of July not sure yet as there still talking about booking it but it would be nice to see them if they do come as i havent seen anyone from london for a year and half now :S

Me and Alex are doing good both looking forwards to the break away which is in a few weeks time. The weathers really hot and sticky and i hate it, been bitten by mosqitos again driving me crazy! Its suppose to rain and get a bit cooler from tomorrow for a few days which will be a relief!

Ciro doesnt like the heat he plays then has to lay and pant somewhere for a while and he sleeps on the marble kitchen floor alot as it seems cooler. He really likes laying on the window sile now and peering through the slits in the blinds at the birds. He keeps getting me up at 2am lately for food rather than 5 am so i really dont know why hes doing that.

Hes a bit obsessed with biting and chewing stuff lately as well like my laptop,book, paper and highheels someone was wearing!. crazy cat

I bought a pair of blue summer geox shoes that are so comfortable and good for lots of walking of the market! there called breathing shoes and one of the best around in my opinion. I also got 2 new tops blue and baggy as its way to hot and i need a few more.

So Alex is trying to book off from the 1st July til 21st so we can spend 5 days in Tuscany then 2 weeks in the mountains in the village of Caldore. Its exciting as we were supposed to go last year but we didnt. So it will be nice. Alex keeps saying he wants an easier life and less stress now as his blood pressure has increased a bit apparently.

A friend of our Patrizia who is the mother of another friend of ours lives across the road from us. She heard about Ciro and his stress about being away for the 2 weeks so she has said she will come in and feed him while we are away if we do the same for her cat when shes away. So we have agreed, at least he will be at home and not somewhere strange. The only thing that cocerns me is he is used to company and she will only come in to feed him in the morning and the evening. So hes going to be alone for the rest of the day but i guess he has to get used to it Alex keeps telling me to stop treating him like a baby

We saw one of Alex friends on the weekend Betha shes really nice she likes Heros might and magic game and Alex bought one in the Uk she doesnt have yet so he helped her download it onto her pc. She asked me about what school i would want to send my kids to here in italy private or public. I told her bluntly Alex didnt know if he wanted them or not and she said She knew. So i am relieved that hes getting a female point of view and talking to someone else about it. She told me not to worry and to give him time, shes so nice.

My friend Jess is going to America in July for a month im going to miss her alot but its good she is going to see her family and friends there.

I have talked to Sky a little bit on facebook although shes not very talkative and it makes me sad shes to busy to talk to me I was thinking if i could save lots of money i could take her and my sister to Disneyland Paris which might be fun but they need to get there passports aorted out first.

So i have been feeling a bit down since yesterday im starting to have withdrawl symptoms from visiting the UK. Especially missing the company my family were with people to chat to etc . It just feels weird now here with just me and Ciro in the day and talking to Jess over MSN. I missing being able to talk to anyone and having thrm understand me but here theres the language barrier. And i know i have to start looking at the Italian course CD we bought but part of me is saying 'is it worth it?'. Especially as i dont know what the future is going to hold in the next few months.

I talked to Jess over text about it and she knows how i feel she said they were going to come to Rome soon so that was good news.

I feel like i want more here, my sister can drive now and i really want to do that and she might be going to college again in september and my brother to Uni next year. I really missing being able to do my evening courses i used to do in London i feel a bit trapped here and like i cant do anything because of the language barrier......I keep having dreams out me studying again which maked me more depressed when i wake up as i just can't do it here in Roma and its so frustrating.

I have been a bit snappy with Alex lately and not been really interested in having a cuddly etc. I just keep feeling frustration and disappointment that he can't seem to make up his mind what he wants and that my life is on hold until he does. Its just not fair and im getting tired of it! I am not waiting years for him to make descions about his life as it effects me to as we are in a relationship.

Also i went to work today the first time since back from the UK and they told me they are going on holiday from July til end of August as there off to the sea side and then America. I felt sad at this as i missed the girls when i was away and now i wont see them for 2 months! Plus they were my link outside more people for me to talk to etc and i wont have that for a while from July

Ciro is being a bit clingy as well which is probably him still feeling a bit unhappy that we left him for two weeks poor baby.

Why cant when you find happiness why cant it just stay that way? and work out etc? why does there have to be all these complication......

We went to pick up Ciro on sunday lunchtime when we got there he gave us a very depressed meow and went to lay on her sofa. But after i gave him a cuddle he seemed happier and i watched him play with the little dog which was cute he was called Andy and they really seemed to like eachother. Ciro had fur missing on the back of one leg where he had been licking it out of stress which is very common in cats as they dont like change. We bought him home he was a bit quiet not is usual self and once we was home he had a long long sleep. He was happy to be home and exhausted. I think we all needed a good rest so we didnt do much that day. Alex phoned the vet to ask about the leg and he said it sounded like stress and for us to give him the drops we already had, so Alex's mind was at rest.

Monday i really wanted to buy Ciro a new bed so he would have one in the hallway and one in the sittingroom. So after we went food shopping we headed for the pet shop. The have a bit that leads down into the shop and it had been raining so it was a bit slippery. Alex almost fell over and then i did fall. I landed hard on my knee if was so painful i couldnt stand for a long time. I had skinned the knee alot. When i finally could get up it was pulsing with pain and i had to limp into the shop with Alex helping me.

We got Ciro his new bed and his food then headed home very slowly and carefully. Alex put loads of ice on my knee and it had started to swell alot and disinfected the knee. The ice really helped i had to lay there for ages though and not move. After i managed to limp into the sittingroom and keep my knee up i was careful not to over use it.

Ciro loved his new house and layed in it watching us as its in the sittingroom while we were on the computers. So all the pain and ice was worth it if he was happy with his new bed. I even spoilt him with his hotdogs he liked and in the evening he just wanted to lay near me which was sweet. He really wants lots of cuddles at the moment as i think he felt a bit abandoned when we went away.

Tuesday we went to what i thought was a spanish restarunt but it turned out to be a mix of Jewish and Arab food it was really nice a bit spicy but good. We were with Alex's friend Beth and her two friends they were really nice and i understood some of the conversation on the spoke to me in english when they could. They have invited us to go to dinner at the house which is a village between Rome and L'Aquila where the earthquake was. My knee was very sniff and got tired alot but apart from that it was fine and it feels almost normal today.

I keep missing Jess on MSN as she seemed to be out alot to over the weekend but hoping to catch up with her today fingerscrossed i have missed chatting with her. I have to catch up on a few programmes i watch as well so that will keep me a bit busy.

Alex bought me a CD course to learn Italian as well i have to start doing asap which looks really good.

Theres been no more talk of children and i had a long talk about it with my mother she said i have to be happy and if i want kids then why should i not have them. And i know shes right so i have to wait and see what he says or comes up with. He keeps saying he loves me and doesnt want to lose me ever so he had to decide whats more important for him then and ho0w much he wants me to stay i guess.

So on the friday night Alex decided he was coming to the UK after all after i said fine i will go alone. He was still a bit nervous about it all but was ok.

That saturday we dropped Ciro off at the lady's house shes really nice and we sat with him for a while when we were there. He was really jumpy and scared at the new place he was going to be staying at while we were away but the lady had 2 cats and a little dog so he had some friends to play with. I felt bad about leaving him there and hoped he would be ok poor baby.

Sunday morning early we got the taxi to the airport all packed and ready the flight was good a little bit of turbulance before Stansted but all in all very good. We got to my parents at 2pmish which was good everyone was happy to see us and we had a lovely dinner. It never feels weird or strange when i go there everything is just the same as normal pretty much. My brother had lost loads of weight even my sister had lost a little bit.

That evening we went to Thorpness with my dad in Suffolk where he works, its such a lovely little place. We spent five days there it was sunny but a bit windy, we walked on the beach went to a few little villages. One of the days we walked 1 and half miles back from one of the villages Alex was grumpy by the end of it as he doesnt like lots of working but it was funny. We made some pasta for my dad which he really liked. We both really relaxed and we needed the break away for sure!

We went back to Norfolk on the friday and booked into the B&B we were staying at a place we had been before and its really nice. Saturday my Grandad and Uncle came to visit us and we all went to Norwich to see my sister and niece it was a really nice day out. The second week was a bit hectic as we went to the zoo with my niece, shopping in Cambridge, Norwich and Thetford. I bought alot of clothes and was worried it wouldnt all fit back in my suit case!

I was a bit bad i put a stone on from all the food there as i went a bit mental with the things i missed so im back on the salads now.The nurse only gave me 3 months of the pill as she wanted to keep an eye on my weight so i have to go back to the UK september now anyway.

We both found the second week exhausting with all the activity and Alex said at the house a few times to play on the computer or watch sky tv. He was really getting into the history channels and was watching all the documentaries on the 1 and 2nd world war etc. He also bought a few DVD's on the subject, along with the Mr Bean collection.

I bought 2 nice sticker books for the girls i babysit which they will love and Hello Kitty note pads for them as well. I got my friend Jess a few thing i wont say what they are ad i know you will probably read my blog

I got 5 new fridge magnets to go with my collection now as i like to get one for where ever i visit! I also got a little bag with the British flag on which was lovely!

I was a bit sad to leave them on saturday i do miss them alot sometimes but i was missing Ciro as well. The lady had texted us and told us he was king of her flat and liked to play with her dog. So we got back home to Rome in the flat at 11pm sunday night.